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The topic of weight and weight loss
has been in a heavy rotation in my mind for months now. It really had been a
part of my life all my life. For many years, I always was the “fat girl” in my
group of friends, and trust me; I played up every stereotype you can think of
when it came down to it. I did
everything to show that I was happy, but I wasn’t. Until lately, I always
played my weight and size as a joke so no one would feel sorry for me. Then I realize I was the only person feeling sorry for me. I realize I was attracting all the negative things to me by the way I was thinking.
One
day I went to the doctor for my annual checkup, when she asks me if I was
thinking of starting a family any time soon. I said no, but it is part of my
future plans. That’s when she drops the bomb on me. She told me at the weight I
am now; carrying a child would be risky. I even could be on bed rest the whole
time. Anyone who knows me know, I want children, and I do whatever it takes to
have my children healthy,and being a mother is more important to me than anything. I started on a diet. Now, I’m being honest, it’s not a
hard diet if a true diet at all. I walk more now that I am back in school and I
do 20-30 squats a day. I can start to see my body changing. My friends are very
supportive, but I learned that if you not happy with whom you are as a whole no
matter how much weight you lose you still be unhappy.
By typing this post, IF I could help
one person see how special they are and how they are worthy of love and
happiness then I can say my job is done. There have been times I wanted to “end
it all”, or felt unworthy to be loved. The day I realize that if I did all of
the things I was thinking then I could not live my dream, and the ones who hurt
me had won. I’m sorry, but I cannot go out that way. I’m here to tell ANYONE of
you who have those dark thoughts of harming yourself or that you not
loved. I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!!! If I can
make it through the bullying from strangers all the way to my own family
members, so can you. Everyone is here for a reason or purpose. DON’T LET ANYONE
STEAL YOUR PURPOSE FROM YOU. I have been where you are, and I KNOW the pain and
tears you cry, but trust me you are stronger than that. If you need someone to
talk to write a letter to yourself and hide it from your sight for a day or
two, and when you re-read the letter you wrote you will be amazed how strong
you became after you overcame the problem. If you want, you can email me if you
just want someone to talk to, or if you can’t talk to anyone around you about
it. I just don’t want anyone to go through what I went through.